Not Always Pretty, Always REAL

It would be easier to slap on a fake smile, tell you “I’m FINE” and hide since I’m not feelin ๐Ÿ’ฏin the emotional department right??๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ I actually don’t like to talk about this AT ALL. Uncomfortable AF. But that’s not real and I can’t be fake.
Even on days when medicating with mindless shopping, sleeping or Netflix binging seems easier – I still choose HARD and show up FOR ME in my fitness + health (mental, physical and emotional). I know if I choose what seems harder now, things will be easier/better in future endeavors. Times like this make me grateful AF 1. To have a supportive community to LEAN IN TO that “get it” because they’re doing hard shit right beside me toward a BETTER LIFE and 2. That I’ve created these healthy habits as MY JOB.
I mentioned feeling a little ‘MEH’ being in my hometown and saying bye to my husband for the week – so I think it’s acceptable to say that it’s OKAY to be bumming a lil bit as long as it’s not counterproductive.
Old Kandace use to do all the things above to pretend like everything was “fine.” I use to be the girl on social media sharing photos of my husband and I as if we never had struggles “I just love my husband so much look what he bought for me” blah blah blah *random love/life quote* ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ญ
We all feel the same feels. Sadness, loneliness, heartache – what matters is what we choose to do in those times. Choose showing up and self care. These feels aren’t forever. Ups and downs are a natural part of life.
In the down times is when SHOWING UP for yourself actually matters the most. Anybody can show up when things are rainbows and butterflies right? It’s when you don’t feel like it – that it best serves you + builds character + strength.
This is why healthy habits are so important to me. That’s why I never skip a day of accountability to my support groups and myself. I can’t imagine how much more cruddy I’d feel in a sad slump if I wasn’t taking care of ME. Oh wait – I lived my life like that up until 3 years ago before coaching and daily personal growth and health became MY JOB. We can do hard shit together. It’s OKAY to feel our feels – it’s not okay to unpack and live there. ๐Ÿ˜˜ฮฑโ„“ฯ‰ฮฑัƒั• ะฝั”ัั” ั‚ฯƒ ะฝั”โ„“ฯ๐Ÿ’Œ

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